Please God, not yourself or others.

God told me to graduate in 2022.

I decided to take the opportunity to graduate in 2021, pushing myself harder and harder to the point of having several mental breakdowns a day, constantly wanting to die. I wanted to graduate in 2021 because that’s what I was “supposed to do.” Truth is it wasn’t, and I am now suffering from those consequences. Yet even in my suffering God has been faithful to me. I barely have any friends, I’ve angered many people including those who I love because I’ve constantly quit jobs this year. I’ve hurt myself and hurt others. I’m exhausted, but God is still good.

I’ve been able to change lives because I love others. I’ve also tried to people please instead of God please. I’ve done so many things and have inflicted trauma on myself because of it.

I write this to say never follow yourself or others. Follow the God whom saves. He is faithful. He was trying to protect me from everything I’ve endured. Lord be with me. I am so sorry for the sins I’ve committed. For wanting to prove myself to those in whom could never save me, as I cannot save myself either. Only you can save, only you can live and choose who lives. I love you Lord, I pray this year be greater than what I could ever imagine and that the person reading this is blessed by my testimony and that they remember to follow you, even in human error. I love you,

Your daughter. Tiara. ❤️

Life is like…

Life is like a river,

It will always lead you to new places.

The goal is not to be the Niagara Falls of the world but to flow like a river and allow God to steer the way.

I love you father. Reborn again in Christ

I unexpectedly fell in love with myself,

Which led me to fall in love all over again with God.

I thank him.

I need him.

I pray this love last forever, as I know his love for me is infinite. ♡

From: Tiara, words from God. ♡

To: God ♡

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– Tiara, words from God. ♡

Overwhelmed

To be overwhelmed is one of the many feelings that we as a society face.

You can become a shell, still with no emotions whatsoever.

You can become sick, with the pit of your tummy turning due to the anxiety of today, and days to come.

I’ve been their,

It’s not fun.

I had to learn to sit back and remember that I am not God.

I am not the fixer of all things,

I am not the “I am.”

Once I realized this, and I’m still working on it, I went on to stop stressing as much.

Say this to yourself:

I can not stop all of the world’s problems, but I can pray.

Prayer is our most valuable weapon, once you do this it is a relief.

I stopped placing others worries in my heart and prayed for them.

I stopped feeling the need to do things to make other people happy,

As it is not my duty to make someone else happy, but God and myself.

So,

When you have a feeling of being overwhelmed.

Stop all that you’re doing.

Breathe.

Write out your day,

Take whatever and whoever that is causing you the most stress on your list off of it.

They are not worth your time or validation.

Have an amazing morning and a great rest of your day,

– Tiara, words from God. ♡

Depression & School.

As I sit here with tears strolling down my face I realize my whole depression has been based on school.

Whether that be K-12, or college.

As I’m trying to log into my online college to pay for my semester the bill brought tears to my eyes,

My financial aid isn’t there, and it’s as if that one moment caused me to cripple, taking me three steps backwards.

My blog is real,

and this is my real life.

Tears, heartache, and hurt all exist.

There is know perfect life, because we don’t life in a perfect world,

However we serve a perfect God.

I took 3 steps back, coming out of my happy place just in that one step forgetting that God’s got me.

I was…

Well at the moment I am still angry, confused, and upset.

This is my truth, and I’m living in it.

Life is hard,

But –

It could be worse.

I could have lost my life multiple times due to my own self inflictions but,

GOD allowed me to stay.

So here I am,

Crying.

Hurt.

Annoyed.

Angered.

But –

Hey,

God is good.

He’s great,

and at the end of the day I’m just happy to be hear.

– Tiara, words from God. ♡

Sweet like Honey

I am honey,

The supplement of God himself.

I am like a honeycomb,

the sweet tart treat like a needed but not wanted hug.

I am of necture,

The product, from the love of God as it oozes down from heaven above.

I am of bees,

The sweet start, the liveliness, the breath of God as he took his time on me,

Sweet.

Like honey.

– Tiara words from GOD. ♡

One day, I’ll see you again. ♡

I miss you and it hurts.

I know you’re in a better place,

I know you prayed for brighter days and now I know you’re there.

You’re flying on heavens wings,

I know you’re still watching me and I’m grateful for your care.

God has blessed me with you,

God has blessed you with me.

Though you’re time was up, it didn’t feel like it was enough but,

I know our time was fair.

I can still feel your hugs,

I can still feel your love.

You are my bestfriend,

I will love you till the end and I pray to one day see you again.

– Tiara, words from GOD. ♡

Sometimes.

Life will suck.

I guess it’s a part of the journey.

Keep pushing through, you’ll make it.

Don’t give up on yourself.

Keep working hard.

Even when you feel like life sucks it will get better.

I truly hope it does, for all of us.

– Tiara, words from God. ♡

I stressed.

Today, was a hard, but a needed day.

I needed to know that GOD always had my back.

I needed to realize that my life was not mine, but GOD’S.

I needed to breathe, to cry, to care.

I am so grateful for this.

I know my worth.

I know my journey is worthy.

I know the Love of GOD is greater than any demon, depression, and heartache.

I know I love GOD.

I know I am GOD’S Child.

– Tiara, words from GOD. ♡