Please God, not yourself or others.

God told me to graduate in 2022.

I decided to take the opportunity to graduate in 2021, pushing myself harder and harder to the point of having several mental breakdowns a day, constantly wanting to die. I wanted to graduate in 2021 because that’s what I was “supposed to do.” Truth is it wasn’t, and I am now suffering from those consequences. Yet even in my suffering God has been faithful to me. I barely have any friends, I’ve angered many people including those who I love because I’ve constantly quit jobs this year. I’ve hurt myself and hurt others. I’m exhausted, but God is still good.

I’ve been able to change lives because I love others. I’ve also tried to people please instead of God please. I’ve done so many things and have inflicted trauma on myself because of it.

I write this to say never follow yourself or others. Follow the God whom saves. He is faithful. He was trying to protect me from everything I’ve endured. Lord be with me. I am so sorry for the sins I’ve committed. For wanting to prove myself to those in whom could never save me, as I cannot save myself either. Only you can save, only you can live and choose who lives. I love you Lord, I pray this year be greater than what I could ever imagine and that the person reading this is blessed by my testimony and that they remember to follow you, even in human error. I love you,

Your daughter. Tiara. ❤️

We are: Children of God

We are more than our earthly bodies for we are spiritual beings. As children of God we are granted the blessing of being a part of the body of Christ. God has given you his Holy Spirit to live inside you, interceding every single day for your greater good in Him. Giving us strength, power, and might.

Without Jesus’s salvation we would be nothing. He helps, saves, and protects us from evil when he knows their is absolutely nothing we can do in return for him that will pay him back for all he’s done, specifically for us.

We can praise him, accept him, share his words, but we can do nothing to repay God for giving us Jesus Christ to die for our sins, and there is nothing we can do to repay Jesus Christ for being our Savior! Yet, nonetheless, he is still their for us in these trying times of uncertainty. For he knows all, does all, and is all.

It’s time for us to be their for others, even if they cannot repay us, just as Jesus does for us every day. ♡

Praise him in the good, the bad,  the ugly and the uncertain times of now.

He is worthy of your praise!

I love you God,

Thank you Jesus Christ. 🙌🏾

Words

The words come to her mouth, like a riddle.

As she began to worry she, remembered this scripture:

God is our mighty fortress, always ready to help in times of trouble.

{Psalms 46:1}

And that the scripture quotes

“Don’t worry about anything, but pray about everything. With thankful hearts offer up your prayers and requests to God.”

{Philippians 4:6}

I questioned God. 07/17/2019

Today I questioned God,

It was the hardest moment in my spiritual life and my personal life, as they are now one because I am a born again Christian.

I wondered how I asked how, I thought: How are these animals being abused and taken from their homelands.

It was as if I stripped off my spiritual clothes and became of full flesh, tempted by sin.

Not because I questioned God, but because of the way I asked, and my anger towards God.

I was fueled with ignorance and anger towards God for allowing elephants to be hurt and abused.

I could not understand why the God I serve who loves me so dearly was allowing such bad things to happen, as they are not human beings.

I became even angrier when I had no response, then an answer came.

This is a test. – God, my God.

It was time to soul search.

I cried some more, wept actually.

Well,

I received my answer

– it wasn’t good enough for me.

So, I became more angry, livid, sending in complaints and animal cruelty petitions to end this crisis.

I cried.

More, and more, my mother realized that after I vented to her, I needed time.

A few minutes later, filled with hurt and hatred for abusers in my heart – I sobbed.

I crawled into my mother’s arms like a baby.

She read to me a passage that my spirit craved, from where and what was said?

– I have no idea, no remembrance of what happened other than I heard God, again:

This is a test. – God, Our God.

He said it so clearly that my heart pierced in remembering that

HE IS GOD. THE ALMIGHTY, THE ALL POWERFUL.

I felt joy, yet sorrow as I condemned my father of the doings that only sin can produce, not The Holy One.

He said to me, to my spirit as well: Free will.

My heart almost sank.

Wow, want an Almighty God he truly is.

I said: I’m sorry, God.

Now, I asked for forgiveness:

Please forgive me,

Father, forever questioning your love for me, your son’s feelings, and the earth’s treasures: animals.

As you are the Almighty, Maker of Heaven and Earth, Alpha and Omega.

I love you, Father.

My Dad.

My Abba.

My Maker.

I love you, and please forgive me as I know you have already done so.

THANK YOU for your acceptance of the imperfect me.

Forever yours,

Tiara, Your daughter

~ Words to God. ♡