Please God, not yourself or others.

God told me to graduate in 2022.

I decided to take the opportunity to graduate in 2021, pushing myself harder and harder to the point of having several mental breakdowns a day, constantly wanting to die. I wanted to graduate in 2021 because that’s what I was “supposed to do.” Truth is it wasn’t, and I am now suffering from those consequences. Yet even in my suffering God has been faithful to me. I barely have any friends, I’ve angered many people including those who I love because I’ve constantly quit jobs this year. I’ve hurt myself and hurt others. I’m exhausted, but God is still good.

I’ve been able to change lives because I love others. I’ve also tried to people please instead of God please. I’ve done so many things and have inflicted trauma on myself because of it.

I write this to say never follow yourself or others. Follow the God whom saves. He is faithful. He was trying to protect me from everything I’ve endured. Lord be with me. I am so sorry for the sins I’ve committed. For wanting to prove myself to those in whom could never save me, as I cannot save myself either. Only you can save, only you can live and choose who lives. I love you Lord, I pray this year be greater than what I could ever imagine and that the person reading this is blessed by my testimony and that they remember to follow you, even in human error. I love you,

Your daughter. Tiara. ❤️

Stop worrying,✋ Give it to God. 🙏🏾

How often do we compromise our now because of the past or what we think the future may look like?

The Lord tells us we are wiped clean from our past and made as white as snow. (Isaiah 1:18)

The Lord also tells us not to worry about the future for he knows the plans he has for us. (Matthew 6:34 & Jeremiah 29:11)

So why do we do it?

That’s an answer for each of us individually to ask ourselves and put a stop to the devil’s antics of wanting us to feel unworthy or scared that something from our past will creep up upon us, or that our future will be affected by the place or situation we are in currently.

We serve a God as Christians that guarantees peace when we trust in him fully, promises us eternal life when we believe in Jesus Christ as the Messiah, our Lord, and Savior.

So why do we worry?

Because we are so wrapped up in society and what the world thinks that we forget that the creator of the world, who happens to be our Father, is the one who controls our paths when we give full authority of our lives to Him! 

Turn to him, Give it all away. He’s ready for you.

God bless.

Jesus loves you all, so much so that he gave his life for you to be at peace and not worry about your past, present, or future. ❤

– Tiara, words from God.

A letter to my younger self.

What do you say to your younger self?

I say to younger Tiara:

You are loved, you are happier now, it all works out because God is with you, and he always will be. Never forget that, ever.

Thank you, Jesus, for grace and growth!

– Tiara, words to God of thanksgiving.

I questioned God. 07/17/2019

Today I questioned God,

It was the hardest moment in my spiritual life and my personal life, as they are now one because I am a born again Christian.

I wondered how I asked how, I thought: How are these animals being abused and taken from their homelands.

It was as if I stripped off my spiritual clothes and became of full flesh, tempted by sin.

Not because I questioned God, but because of the way I asked, and my anger towards God.

I was fueled with ignorance and anger towards God for allowing elephants to be hurt and abused.

I could not understand why the God I serve who loves me so dearly was allowing such bad things to happen, as they are not human beings.

I became even angrier when I had no response, then an answer came.

This is a test. – God, my God.

It was time to soul search.

I cried some more, wept actually.

Well,

I received my answer

– it wasn’t good enough for me.

So, I became more angry, livid, sending in complaints and animal cruelty petitions to end this crisis.

I cried.

More, and more, my mother realized that after I vented to her, I needed time.

A few minutes later, filled with hurt and hatred for abusers in my heart – I sobbed.

I crawled into my mother’s arms like a baby.

She read to me a passage that my spirit craved, from where and what was said?

– I have no idea, no remembrance of what happened other than I heard God, again:

This is a test. – God, Our God.

He said it so clearly that my heart pierced in remembering that

HE IS GOD. THE ALMIGHTY, THE ALL POWERFUL.

I felt joy, yet sorrow as I condemned my father of the doings that only sin can produce, not The Holy One.

He said to me, to my spirit as well: Free will.

My heart almost sank.

Wow, want an Almighty God he truly is.

I said: I’m sorry, God.

Now, I asked for forgiveness:

Please forgive me,

Father, forever questioning your love for me, your son’s feelings, and the earth’s treasures: animals.

As you are the Almighty, Maker of Heaven and Earth, Alpha and Omega.

I love you, Father.

My Dad.

My Abba.

My Maker.

I love you, and please forgive me as I know you have already done so.

THANK YOU for your acceptance of the imperfect me.

Forever yours,

Tiara, Your daughter

~ Words to God. ♡

Watch “A Queen’s Crown Podcast Ep.3: How God’s love affects us.” on YouTube

Hi Everyone!

Please watch my new podcast on YouTube!

I am so excited for what God gave me to share with you.

I pray you all are having an amazing day, and know that everything will soon be more than ok, but great.

God bless,

– Tiara, words from God. ♡

Words from God.

When no one else cares, I do. – God

A day, a lifetime, an hour.

Life takes time, but most importantly lifetimes take you.

Be grateful for all of the times in your life when you’ve felt down, because now you know what being lifted up by God feels like.

I love you.

God loves you,

and remember, that “it” in your life will take time.

Xo,

– Tiara, words from God. ♡

Overwhelmed

To be overwhelmed is one of the many feelings that we as a society face.

You can become a shell, still with no emotions whatsoever.

You can become sick, with the pit of your tummy turning due to the anxiety of today, and days to come.

I’ve been their,

It’s not fun.

I had to learn to sit back and remember that I am not God.

I am not the fixer of all things,

I am not the “I am.”

Once I realized this, and I’m still working on it, I went on to stop stressing as much.

Say this to yourself:

I can not stop all of the world’s problems, but I can pray.

Prayer is our most valuable weapon, once you do this it is a relief.

I stopped placing others worries in my heart and prayed for them.

I stopped feeling the need to do things to make other people happy,

As it is not my duty to make someone else happy, but God and myself.

So,

When you have a feeling of being overwhelmed.

Stop all that you’re doing.

Breathe.

Write out your day,

Take whatever and whoever that is causing you the most stress on your list off of it.

They are not worth your time or validation.

Have an amazing morning and a great rest of your day,

– Tiara, words from God. ♡

Depression & School.

As I sit here with tears strolling down my face I realize my whole depression has been based on school.

Whether that be K-12, or college.

As I’m trying to log into my online college to pay for my semester the bill brought tears to my eyes,

My financial aid isn’t there, and it’s as if that one moment caused me to cripple, taking me three steps backwards.

My blog is real,

and this is my real life.

Tears, heartache, and hurt all exist.

There is know perfect life, because we don’t life in a perfect world,

However we serve a perfect God.

I took 3 steps back, coming out of my happy place just in that one step forgetting that God’s got me.

I was…

Well at the moment I am still angry, confused, and upset.

This is my truth, and I’m living in it.

Life is hard,

But –

It could be worse.

I could have lost my life multiple times due to my own self inflictions but,

GOD allowed me to stay.

So here I am,

Crying.

Hurt.

Annoyed.

Angered.

But –

Hey,

God is good.

He’s great,

and at the end of the day I’m just happy to be hear.

– Tiara, words from God. ♡

Watch “A Queen’s Crown Podcast Ep. 2: Following God’s Path & Finding Happiness.” on YouTube

Hi,
I’m Tiara! Welcome to my channel. ♡

Watch to get away from it all and have peace.

This is a faith based video.

I pray for peace, hope, and happiness in your life!

~ Thank you! ~

– Tiara, words from God. ♡